Love is when …

Life and moments. Happiness and blues.

Love is when you trust who’s got your back

No matter what you choose.

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Brightness and lightness of it all

I look up at the sky on a starry night, there are countless twinkling stars. I focus on one star, the rest disappear for me. Its tremendous luminosity extended to me, to be received. As I fill up myself with the light, I find a sense of clarity in my being. I expand my view in the sky again. My star now is a tiny sparkling speck, only one of countless others. I zero in back on the one that I claim mine, it exists as if just for me and I exist just as if its light.

Such are all of us here. Just one speck in this sea of humanity, but no less than a luminous star when we allow the light. Each one of us unique in the way we can shine. We are all held in this precious space, our part of the sky. Our clarity being nudged and cracked open. We sometimes scatter out in more spaces, to claim more of the sky with our light of clarity. Doubts and distress are just weathers passing by. We are all part of the same journey, held by the same sky.

The sky can hold and support the one who is willing to shine. Shine in the way of feeling that comes from the grit towards clarity and truth. And then whatever way that can translate into kindness, in this sea of humanity. A small difference that we make for anyone, could be a world of a difference to that one.

I ask  not how the sky can support me, I ask how else am I willing to show up, in my life, so when the sky holds me, I just shine!

When the Sun doesn’t give up …

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When the Sun doesn’t give up giving light
Even when it’s done shining bright
That’s when the beautiful crimson
Diffuses and blurs the line of horizon

Just like that the grandeur of it all
Diffuses and absorbs my mere existence
Dissolves all my resistance
Yet I feel more alive than ever
Is this as close as it gets to the Creator?

Which one is it?

Which one is it?

Painful yet beautiful
Beautiful yet painful

Sadness with a sweet smile
Sweet smile with sadness

Tears of joy
Joy of tears

Love has attachment
True love is detachment

Memories from past
Reside in present

Past in present
Present in past

Heartful love
Longing heart

Letting go of desire
Desire of letting go

Life a wishful dream
Dream a wishful life

Journey of a lifetime
Lifetime of a journey

Perfect imperfection
Imperfect perfection

Content conclusion
Concludes contentment

Certainty always uncertain
Uncertainty always certain

Unwavered faith in Universe
Utmost support on true path

Miraculous design
Divine timing

Which one is it?

Confidence …split between Worldly & Universal

Confidence is being sure of self or free of doubt. My exploration and revelation about it has been amusing to me. In any given moment the word confidence means nothing to me. I don’t relate to it or I don’t sense it in my body. Wait, let me finish 🙂

If I were to think of times when I felt very sure of myself, they come very easily to me. The times when I am writing like this, some poetry is flowing out of me or I am with a student, my sons or friend to answer a question that I am very sure I can answer. At least I can always answer ‘I don’t know’. I am not shy of that answer at all.

Those are the times I am confident of what I am saying and what I mean. Yet confidence is not a dominant part of my body language. All I know is when I am sure of myself, I am very relaxed in my way of being. The words, actions and answers are coming through me from some place of knowing that I am unable to own. It is more that I am willing to be owned by that knowing, I have surrendered to all the Universal knowing that wants to flow through me. This always keeps working for me, as long as, I stay in this space that gives true joy in my being. That joy becomes a delight when others understand me.

The world is made of people on different gradation on the confidence scale. There are people of robust physiques and best confident body language, unable to recall the last time they felt very sure of themselves. This way of being has worked for them in the world and they have practiced it enough to feel and seem very natural. There’s people who truly embody their most genuine and very assured way of being. They inspire me.

I have spent more of my time facing myself than I have spent facing the world. I have had to reach to the core of the Universal wisdom to be able to survive some of my life moments. And I have practiced those truths enough in my way of being, to feel natural about them. I have no shred of doubt in me when they flow through me.

I can get very timid where the world setting asks for a prominent presence of visibility in the physical body. That is my learning curve to cultivate the essence and strength of knowing to become evident as a felt-sense in my being. And it is some person’s learning curve to reach to their core knowing and cultivate it, for it to merge with their well-stitched cloak of confidence. 

Where does each one of us place ourselves on the scale of confidence?
To me personally, it has 2 ends to it …Worldly & Universal. I will be working to bring them together …so I don’t feel like a split person in one body anymore …

P.S. I am sure of what I mean here, not at all sure of what it translates to you 🙂 Please enlighten me on my learning curve, either way, in agreement or in contradiction.

Giving Up Something …

Giving up something you love and live by is never easy …something you never considered you would do without, something that was as granted as the oxygen …What you become when you have to give it up, is worth finding out …

You open up to the version of you unknown to you …as if you keep coming home to yourself …time and again …time and again …smirk or smile, tedious or treacherous, understood or misunderstood by others …coming home to yourself, always an adventure

A tug at your heart pulling both ways …game of attach and detach …rise above all you feel, diffuse all meanings given, relish as the baggage is ridden, digest the undigested & the deeply imbibed …keep what serves, its essence …extract the flavors of the gained and retained

Look to create anew, the resiliency to sustain once again, what you gave up for true …wonder what form and way it comes back …keep yourself going, knowing it’s attainable …for everything is possible for You, a piece of Universal Creation too

Look beyond the lack, a sense of Self that you gain, devoid of what defined you …unknowingly so …existence is precious You …looking to associate, and then painfully dissociate …the space and freedom is unexplainable …simply Being, making it look so easy, sometimes taken for nothing …making you roar insanely for visibility, then retreating to your home of Self …the comfort is growing there

Comfort doesn’t help you though …for the force of Universe wants you …moving and flowing, growing and thriving …reaching for what you gave up, you are not meant for deprivation …

Reach within yourself deep down, pull yourself out …stumble into the world, take your steps, retreat, go back learn to walk …and run and roar and be silent and present and everything in between …

Make mistakes, face the mess, feel and follow the tug inward and then the same outward …let it not break you …sometimes the only anchor and the most powerful one, is the breath you take …a direct experience to the sense of self …keep coming home, keep reaching out, polarity will give you the space from which you keep emerging in either direction, you will know better and smarter which way …play the game, play the game, play the game!

Gratitude for life itself!!!

 

While on your true path …

Scary synchronicity
Overwhelming amazement

Heartful truths
Soulful speech

Speechless words
Wordless thoughts

Random serendipity
Relevant significantly

Confused conviction
Confirmed confidence

Magical miracles
Powerful potentials

Worldly woes
Unworldly understanding

Seemingly worldly
Virtually universal

Incomprehensible events
Empowered faith

Unearthly phenomenon
Seeker’s paradise

Expansive space
Invoking intention

Flawless design
Divine perfection