Now do you laugh or cry?
When the one who sat with your sigh
While your times were crappy
That someone as if can’t stand you
When you are now happy
Now do you hurt or smile?
When someone visited with you
As if when you were dying
That someone acts as if shocked you are living
Now do you stay or let go?
Someone stayed (or played) with you
When helpless in sorrowful strive
And now denies you exist even so
As if unable to see you thrive …
What is it that blocks my sense
What is this deafening silence
I probe for words or thoughts
There are none but some knots
So much noise yet no sound
Within or without nothing around
Heart is open, head gnawing to know
What is the lesson here lying low
I have opened my mouth big enough
Who do I turn to when feeling rough
What do I say when I ask for help
Do not have a story to the drama to yelp
There is no reason, still wish relief
No other responsible, probably some of my belief
Is there anyone else out there
Who knows this stuck brick in the head
I realize that the best advice I give to myself
Is when I am talking to others like myself
I better listen carefully when I talk next
For now maybe I’ll take a walk or rest
Drama waiting to be shared
With anyone who even slightly cared …
Boredom is the mother
Of looking for another
Who would give a nod
To the story that we weave
As truth what we believe
More than one head shaking together
Feels great to find a smile
As we walk the mile
Use it though like a condiment
Added to your own recipe of a journey
As a tasteful and powerful complement
If used as an escape
It only adds more trauma to the drama
If used as entertainment
Leads certainly to disappointment
Get to know the blank
The space of lonesome boredom
From where all drama arises often
Helps you isolate trauma in exclusion
Now you can choose what to play
Really feel the pulse of your character
Now you become the co-writer
Enjoy all the drama for what you care
Choose the audience with whom to share
It is your show
The more and more you let go
It is your show
The more you contribute to the flow
It is your show
Take time to really know
The characters you allow
To be part of your show
The choice may not be in some characters
The choice is then actually in your role
In all the drama you want to share
With the ones who would really care!
Infinite Living 