I have lived with a confusion of what exactly I want to do with the rest of my lifetime.
I looked upon the path I was walking on, I often saw multiple trails coming up ahead. The best I could zoom in was to stand at a fork trying to decide which one of the two roads ahead I want to choose.
That led me to question myself : “What is my purpose?” “What is the work that I am truly given time for, on this planet?” “Which dream do I follow? Which dream is truly mine? Which ones are more ideas from others about what I could be/should be doing?”
It felt like this lifetime wouldn’t be enough to cover the paths becoming evident to me.
It is funny how clarity in different directions can create confusion!
The word ‘Focus’ dawned on me. I needed to focus in one direction for now, I told myself.
I followed my inclinations and found things that I couldn’t stop doing. They are enough to fill the day ahead & my heart with immense joy & peace. I am committed to those.
It has become clear to me that I needn’t beat up myself with one ambition to focus on.
I am travelling this beautiful road of life and I have a lot of glorious views on the way. I give myself permission to look side ways and take time to appreciate what I see.
This picture of mine taken unknown to me, gives me a glimpse of my Focus in life.
I kneel to the ground in reverence to how I am being guided and choose to look through the lens of a powerful perspective.
I still see the fork in the road ahead of me, not knowing which way each trail twists & turns. Yet, I am seeing that I will be led on to one of them, one day at a time.
Something tells me there is a possibility that both those trails could meet at a later time, and I might have the opportunity to have an integrated experience of fulfilling all my dreams on the way. Just maybe …
This post is a contribution to ForgivingFridays, a monthly initiative by Debbie Roth of Forgiving Connects, a blog of inspiration to me.